Monday, April 23

I'm going to try to keep up this blog. It will mostly be for me since no one really has the link. So maybe I'll try to write in it.

Tonight we had to go over to the trailer and clean up the branches. Eldon had his brother's dump truck so Kim and Allison filled it up (I had a meeting until 8:00 so I got there late). All the branches are from the last snow storm we had - in April! It was a very heavy snow and so lots of branches broke and fell. We will have to hit it again tomorrow or later in the week since it got dark on us.

Jim hasn't heard anything from the doctor today about his lat MRI. I'm sure he is getting anxious. We want them to say that this Cyberknife is something that will help him. But, I think he is feeling better. Each day, maybe a little more. Toby and Megan are busy making plans for Lennons baptism and then thier wedding/blessing. I think Jim is glad they are making the plans. But now they asked me (and Kim) to plan a party for that evening. Don't know where it will be or what we will do but, there will be a party!

Finding Peace?

Today was cold again. It has been a cold winter so far. It is now February and it snowed a little again today. I don't mind the cold or the snow. It's harder to get outside because you have to put so many more clothes on just to be able to stay out and work or walk outside. As long as the wind is not blowing real hard, it can be invigorating to bundle up and go outside and walk around and listen to the silence of winter. The snow muffles the sounds so you can experience the stillness. It can be described as peaceful.

I had the job today to go check on my brother-in-law's dogs since he is out of town. I enjoy doing it for him. It was strange in the house though. It is strange to say only Mike's name. I looked around the house and even though almost nothing has changed, I can feel the absence of Kay. I sat down and cried because I could not feel her, in the house, anymore. Moments like this it hits me so hard that she is gone, really gone. Not just at work or out of town. I can't imagine how hard it is for Mike. To come home each day and feel that absence. I wish I could do more for him. But finding the peace that must be found is such a personal, intimate journey. I wish peace for Mike. I also wish peace for me and Kim and all the rest of the family. I hope that Mike will always feel a part of our family and that he can turn to us and know that we understand his pain and I hope that we all slowly find peace together.

January 18, 2007

Good morning. Today it is cold and there is still snow on the ground. The snow is actually like a big piece of ice since it is so hard and compacted. It is going to take a good day of sunshine to get rid of the snow and ice. It looks like it might snow again on Saturday. But we got it pretty mild here compared to some places. Down in Oklahoma they really got the ice and it sounds like out west they are really getting the cold temps. Right now here it is 26 degrees.

Sarah has a basketball game tonight at Lyons. I probably won't be able to be there but I hope she gets to play and has fun. She makes it sound like she doesn't really like to play and doesn't want to be on the team but when she gets out there she plays well and looks like she is having a lot of fun. I hope she remembers that that is what it is all about - Having Fun.